*this post has been edited from diary*

I completely lost it today. Just broke down, cried. After so many days...and i broke the promise i made to myself.

i'm drained and tired. i can never hide my emotions completely because i was never like that. i find that sometimes i'm like an open book, just waiting to be read. Just lying on the shelf, waiting to be found.

my emotions conflict each other. i feel joyful yet jealous and angry. lost yet found. weak yet strong.

*edited out*

i have a mixture of muddy emotions. i want to get away from everything...but i know i can't. i'm not like that. i'm responsible. i know what the consequences will be if i do anything like that.

regina has told me that i'm suffering from depression. i'm beginning to think so...but who do i turn to? nobody seems right for the sharing of all my thoughts. in fact, not all are recorded inside this book. too many things to think about.

i feel invisible sometimes.

[i'm tired.]
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