i didn't realise my fear was so great until last night. all the pent up stuff just came flowing right out. what scares me is not only the fear itself, but the amount of fear i have. i guess i shouldn't be so pessimistic but what if it does really come to pass? the same things are happening all over again, and i don't want it to go this way...it was all my fault. if i had acted a bit faster things wouldn't turn out to be this way...if only i had seized the opportunity when it was waved right in front of my face...

i bet no one understands wad i juz wrote. oh well :D no da. hehe. why can't my com load everyone's blog?? huh? huh? huh? maybe internet got prob. read later lorx.

i currently have no mood at all to complete my homework or study or anything. yesterday in the morning ate waffles with chocolate sauce!! and MILK ;) *wide grin*.then went swimming, but couldn't swim with my knee like dat, so coach made me do arm pulling all the way, but insisted dat i could do butterfly...so tiring! was an idiot. anyway, later went for tuition at wan ling's house...tuition was fun...did questions and dodoed around...den went home...den went to mama's house...ate kentucky...drank dad's beer *grins* den watched a stupid movie on channel 5 called "dungeons and dragons". it was so stuuupid. literally. i was laughing my ass off at the dwarf and his beard dat looked like it was about to come off any moment.

today!! went market for breakfast, then came back home, did zuo ye, den played the com...really can't be bothered to do homework...though it is a lot...hehe...probably do it durin the soccer match tonight...

dat stupid nuriko hasn't returned my comic books yet!! see lar...end up i have nothing to read before i sleep...have to stare at the ceiling. waaaaaaaaiiiiiiiiii~~! i want my books back!!

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